Monday, January 3, 2011

i don't want be a blogger

I started this blog to let my out of state family see pictures of the kids.

I quickly found amusement and satisfaction in chronicling the story of my little family; writing has always been a love of mine and I felt like I was actually one of those cool scrapbooking girls like my sister in law Marlys.

Then it became sort of a lifeline, a way to preserve memories and know my son's life was not in vain, that his story wouldn't be forgotten, an outpouring of hope and horror and grief and the grace of God.

And you read.

I am humbled by each one who chooses to use their precious moments to read what is written here.

Obviously most bloggers hope that people read, hope that they touch lives and hope that people read their story.  There is a temptation to "go big," to link up and to track back; {are those the right terms?!} to advertise and join networks to gain attention and followers.

I just want to say that's not what we're about. 

If one person reads and learns that life is precious,

If one woman reads and thinks maybe I could bring my heart home,

If one friend can say . . . I know this girl. . . her baby died too, and she is still alive. . .

If one grieving couple can see. . . we're still fighting to hang on and stay together and walk this road of grief as one,

If one soul finds a God Who is still a loving Father, even in the fire,

If you close your laptop up and go kiss your kids,

then I will be so happy.

Not sure I'll be blogging much in 2011. . .

but I do plan on stopping in to my Google account

after the kids are in bed

after my sink is clean (thanks Flylady)

after my real life relationships are up to date

and sharing my heart.


  1. I totally agree! What's important is what is real and in front of us alive and wanting attention now.
    I feel exactly the same. I don't write except for myself and my record and I am not out to link or collect record number of followers. I like to connect with those who really say something that touches my heart or means something to me.... and your blog certainly has done that!
    Thanks for all your words, thoughts and feelings you have put on means more than you know.

  2. O, you have touched my heart in so many ways... I cry with you & laugh with you... I totally feel with you. I would hate to see you quit your blog but I would understand also. Be Brave, take good care of yourself & your family. I am still praying for you all. Hugs.

  3. Your story is inspiring and everytime you blog, I feel I am able to do what's I can do best - listen (read).

    Keep writing and always be as you are. You are a very strong lady and a lovely wife and mother. Have a happy and healthy year ahead!

  4. And that is what "blogging" should be about...sharing our heart, and not worrying about the crowds that may or may not read.

    Blessings to you in this new year....

  5. There you go again Hayley...writing my heart...
    Love you my sweet friend.

  6. Coincidentally the stirrings in my heart during the month of December were very much what you wrote about... And I ultimately decided: Life is simply better in person. (a blog title that will be coming soon)

    I love your blog, but totally get it. completely. Good for you. - and that simply means we need to see each other in person more!

  7. I have never commented because you don't know me and I haven't known exactly what to say. But today I feel the need to tell you that your words have touched my core. You are very courageous to share you true feelings and your amazing faith in God. You have really touched my heart and taught me so much, especially on the days when my son is having a tough day. As I struggle soothe him I thank God for what a blessing he is and what a precious gift every momment of our life is.

    Thank you for your courage to share it all with us. I think your plan for 2011 to focus on people and relationships is an amazing way to start the new year. Blessings to you and your family.

  8. Amen sister.
    I find that blogging has been more a journal of sorts, a way to get all my thoughts out. -before I forget them. -or while I'm working/praying through it. It's been freeing to me, even if no one reads it. now i do it to keep track of asher's growth. It IS so special to look back on God's goodness over the years.
    keep blogging, you're encouraging!

  9. I completely agree with you. I have been tempted to advertise and such, but that is not what I want. I just want it to be simple blog, no ajenda but do share the love of God and to proclaim His wonders from the mountiantops.

    I do love your posts, but it is so important to do what God is telling you to do. There is a time and season for everything.

    You are one wise lady!


  10. Love when you share your heart! I don't comment a lot, but I check your new posts very often. You are very strong and encouraging!