Wednesday, July 28, 2010


I know that people are praying their hearts out for us. . .

but you guys must have all been praying in unison today.

Today - marks ten weeks without our little man.

Today is also the first day that I have not felt. . . destroyed.

Tomorrow may (probably will) be dark and crushing again, but today, God lifted the horrible pressure of grief from my heart, and I know it is because of the power of prayer, and people.

You guys are giving new meaning to the Body of Christ.

Ruth told me tonight that she has been praying that God will lessen the agony of the flashbacks. I feel that goosebumps are in order here, because, today, He has.

Tammy brought gifts today- beautiful books, for me, for the kids. . . listening, caring, praying.

Pam asked if I wanted peppers from her garden. . . well, sure, and when you bring your fresh picked peppers over, I will proceed to dump on you for an hour while you patiently sit on my couch and love me by listening.

So much hope, today.

Friends, lifting us up. People, giving of their hearts.

I am humbled and amazed by this kind of love.

{snapshots from today}
{pool time}
{displayed some book faves in a new way}
{actually cooked- it was easy, yes, but I actually enjoyed it}

{changed the roman shades in the kitchen & dining room windows}
{and I'm loving the new look}


  1. That brought tears, good tears, to my eyes. Im so happy that you had such an encouraging day. Still praying.

  2. This made me cry. Alot (and in a very joyful way. Because what is more beautiful than the Holy Spirirt working within and in coordination with the body of Christ? It is amazing to be able to see his obvious hand alive and at work - lightening the heavy load you carry!
    Hayley - we are praying our hearts out and have longed for the day that we hear, even if just for a day, that you have felt that grief lifted.
    AND - I am loving the shades! I can just picture them in your warm home with such thoughtful details!

  3. Thank you, LORD! We praise your Name, for the hope you have given Hayley! I pray that you would continue to relieve her of this great burden of grief. I pray that each day a little bit more would chip away and that the memories of the horrible will be replaced by the memories of the lovely and good times.

    I'm so glad you have experienced relief THIS day!

  4. This was so encouraging, Hayley. I'm glad you were able to enjoy some of the little things again. God does answer prayer!

    I love the curtains!! Did you put the green ribbons on or did they come that way. Cute!!

  5. Praying that these types of days increase in number Hayley. Hang on to Hope. You are so loved.

  6. You just posted the prayer I say for your family every day~
    I pray that each day will be a little easier. Some days may feel like one step forward, one step back and on these days we will continue our prayers and praise him for giving you strength.
    I have told Tammy and Gail that I can't wait until the day I can read your blog and read your menu for the week, see your new craft projects and the funny things your AMAZING children say. I hope to get to see those things that I believe bring joy to your life.
    I will continue to hold your family up in prayer and I thank God that he is encouraging you and that he will continue to do so in the days ahead.

  7. I am so glad you have so many people praying for you. I DO believe in the power of prayer and moreso since we lost Graham. I am so sorry for the loss of your little boy...the pain is unreal...I know...we are living it. We have almost hit the 7 months mark...I can hardly believe it. With the weeks passing come new emotions and struggles different than the ones initially, but still very hard. I pray I can help you know what you can expect...but this is still your grief and although we are walking this same journey, and we will experience similar feelings and emotions, it will still look and feel different. I would love to stay in touch with you and be able to write you more in lengthy messages, so I will give you my email address. It is I look forward to hearing from or night...praying for you! Shelly Carpenter

  8. I'm so happy Hayley! I keep praying for you and Daniel everyday. It takes time and more time, strength and sometimes falling back again, going back to the dark but there will be more days like this. More days where you can see light, days that you can feel your shattered broken heart working again. The pain doesn't go away, we just learn how to keep leaving with it. God is with you all the time and he loves you. Keep surviving Hayley. Love ya!

  9. Hi Hayley.

    I noticed today that I had a new follower of my blog. I clicked on the link and met your sweet family for the first time. I cried tears for Gabe for the first time.

    And was gently reminded by our amazing heavenly Father that I do not travel the road I am on by myself. Our story is different and yet we both long to hold our sweet boys who have gone 'further up and farther in' without us.

    I'm praying that my Noah and your Gabe are hanging out in heaven together... and that the God who 'heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds' gives you a special measure of peace tonight.

  10. Hi Hayley-
    I found this blog through my aunt Jane's Facebook page. I thought your name looked familiar, clicked on your page, and saw your website. I knew you eons ago through the newsletter you wrote (or articles, maybe? Can't quite remember!). I used to write Pickwick Papers.
    Anyhow, I just wanted to mention how very sorry I am for your great loss. Reading through some of your posts brought me to tears. You have such a powerful voice and a way with words and I know that your story is touching countless lives. Many prayers for God's comfort and peace through this extremely difficult time.