I found your blog through a message board a few days ago, and I just can't tell you how touched I am by your story. I read your blog in tears, and I am in tears again, as I read your story. You are so strong, and I can't imagine how difficult it has been to go through this, as well as, how you feel now about your other children. Constantly living in fear...anyways, I hope you don't mind, but I wrote about your story on my blog today. Please let me know if you'd like me to take it down: http://rachelandgrantharvey.blogspot.com/2010/07/just-remember.html.
Don't songs just jump out at you? It seems like songs & music minister to my heart almost more than anything else. I loved this one too, as soon as I heard it. Another one I wonder if you've heard is called Awakened by Ian McIntosh. It is so simple... and so profound. I think you would like it. =)